Hacked / 22 May, 2015

I would like to sit here and write a piece which cast some meaningful light on what's going on, but sometimes you have to put up your hands and say I haven't got a clue! 

From my perspective the swings this week have been enormous. From total connection and serenity one minute to child like vulnerability the next. The disorientation has been huge and the events are accordingly bizarre.

I had my computer hacked in a telephone scam on Wednesday, when in a state of apparent hypnosis I broke every rule of common sense available. It was as if someone had hacked my brain rather than my computer and they could have told me anything and I would have done it.

"Now Mr. Ayling, take off all your clothes and walk down the High Street singing the national anthem."

"Of course, Mr Strange Bloke on the phone I don't know. Would you like some money as well?"

Now I have spent enough of my life stressed and triggered to recognise what was happening, but this was different. It was if I was being shown the extent to which we are all controlled by our programming. There was a part of me which was fully aware of what was going on, but at another level I had no control. It was similar to those dreams in which you observe yourself as opposed to experience it as yourself.

What is equally strange is that since then I have not been able to fully reconnect with familiar thought patterns or choices, sort of swimming around in a haze. It appears another part of the Bill Ayling story has left the room!

Be interesting to see what remains in the end.

What an amazing ride!

Enjoy it all

Go easy, tread lightly, stay free 

Bill