Sweet Surrender / June 6, 2014

Sweet Surrender

I guess it's time to finally put my hands up! I really haven't got a clue what's going on, and the more authentic I become in accepting that, the smoother the ride becomes. It is my incessant meddling which interrupts the flow of a beautifully benign universe. 

Whilst this sounds horribly defeatist to the ego, even the new improved spiritualized ego, which, praise the Lord, has seen the light and replaced the old Bill ego, but nonetheless remains my ego, it is strangely empowering. You see the best way to stop meddling is simply to do something you enjoy. Without getting all "Law of Attraction" on you it would appear the more I focus my attention on what I consciously choose in the moment, the more all the other stuff takes care of its itself.

The strange companion to this state is a diminishing lack of desire. Trying to work out what I will enjoy in the future is getting tougher by the day! There is a faint siren call which is trying to catch my attention which renders my current ideas redundant, but it is frustratingly faint. It is like trying to remember a tune which is just beyond reach.

I guess the only option is to be with what is and choose in the moment, then the next, then the next. 

Love

Bill